Really brave, really stupid or both!!

You have to understand that I am the uhmmm, black sheep of the family. The one who beats to the beat of her own drum. Who had and has NO time at all for family members who are cruel and horrid!!

My brother (yes, I have one of those) invited us to my niece's 1st Birthday party. It is today. Needless to say family members loved, tolerated and just plainly not tolerated are going to be there. Not sure I've seen some of them since I don't know when. I'm seriousley hoping I can find a tranquiliser in my handbag. I am almost certain I saw one floating around in there for an emergency just like this. LOL

I have her gift - probably spent way too much. Okay, almost certain I did!! But it jumped out at me and said 'This is it..."

I think hubby is waiting for the moment I back out. The moment I chicken out............and I am really trying to be brave. I keep telling myself that these are only people and I'm not there for them but my niece Carys. Could gobble her up she is just too cute!!

Better go and build on that courage!!

Have a super Saturday.

It was one of those days!!!

Where it starts in a flood of tears!! Yep, me. Here at home, at Josh's school and a teeny bit at home again. My coping mechanism had failed me.

Later in the afternoon, I discover a mom has bought a pendant - I feel happy but embarrassed too. Did she buy it because she heard of my troubles or just cause she liked it. I'm being silly right. Very silly!! My latest pendants have sat on Etsy for the past couple of days. Stagnant!! No looks, no nothing. Guess I failed in that idea!! Back to the drawing board, I guess.

I know we will come out the other end of this - stronger. More financial savvy and stronger for it. I just wish it was over!! I look back and think - what if I had done things differently. Not bought this or that. Oh well, it's in the past!!

My teddy's for an exchange are still sitting here - I promised to get them off. I just can't!! Stupid!! It's ready, I can do it - but I can't!!

Another successful day of working on the project. Managed to find some relevant books for our next and I'm looking forward to Saturday. Maybe I'll just be a bit more savvy about this homeschool gig. I just don't want to FAIL my son!!

An emotional day filled with silly emotional crap. But guess we need them once in a while.

Hugs!!!!!!!

Our VERY NON-EXISTANT satellite dish...

According to some we had one of these. Where, who knows?? Why on earth would we be hiding it now. We have never had the pleasure of Satellite Television. My goodness (me being word good here), I'd never have to worry about downloading those House episodes or any of the others if we could just watch it on our DSTV.

Now since yesterday afternoon, my screen went kablooey. It sent a little blue spark out and that was it. So we were not aware of this email until hubby came home this afternoon with a very 2nd hand screen so we could actually see what emails we had. Also the reason why I am only posting now. LOL The new HO's are demanding the return of the little NON EXISTANT Satellite dish that just NEVER was.

So I am breathing in and out. Counting to 10. And next step will be meditation. My heart is pounding, I'm breathing fast and trying not to do anything STUPID. Yes, I am behaving myself.

Love you guys.

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