Thursday, August 21, 2008

It was one of those days!!!

Where it starts in a flood of tears!! Yep, me. Here at home, at Josh's school and a teeny bit at home again. My coping mechanism had failed me.

Later in the afternoon, I discover a mom has bought a pendant - I feel happy but embarrassed too. Did she buy it because she heard of my troubles or just cause she liked it. I'm being silly right. Very silly!! My latest pendants have sat on Etsy for the past couple of days. Stagnant!! No looks, no nothing. Guess I failed in that idea!! Back to the drawing board, I guess.

I know we will come out the other end of this - stronger. More financial savvy and stronger for it. I just wish it was over!! I look back and think - what if I had done things differently. Not bought this or that. Oh well, it's in the past!!

My teddy's for an exchange are still sitting here - I promised to get them off. I just can't!! Stupid!! It's ready, I can do it - but I can't!!

Another successful day of working on the project. Managed to find some relevant books for our next and I'm looking forward to Saturday. Maybe I'll just be a bit more savvy about this homeschool gig. I just don't want to FAIL my son!!

An emotional day filled with silly emotional crap. But guess we need them once in a while.



angelinabeadalina said...

Huge hugs from my way. Hope tomorrow is a better day all around.

Capt Elaine Magliacane said...

Oh Mich... sorry you're having one of those days... is Aunt Flo coming to visit? I had a tearful breakdown on Sunday... couldn't stop... I was SO OUT there... I checked and my blood sugar was sky high... have you checked your blood sugar lately?

YOU WILL NOT FAIL your son.. your son will be a fine, smart, successful young man one day... and you will be so proud of him... not in small part because of all the work you did to help him get there... institutions of education are NOT the center of the universe and they don't know everything... and they don't have a clue how to teach your son even half as well as you can. You're strong you'll make it and your son will learn from you not just what's in his school books but about life, and determination and love and TRUE GRIT... good things for a young man to learn.

Anonymous said...

LOL! Must be in the Air, I've cried for the last three days and just want to hide. Can't do that, but wish it would pass.
Yours too will pass and yes you are raising wonderful boys and you will not fail with the home schooling...You are a strong talented woman!